Deception hits at our core...it is wrong by any standard and for any reason, actually there is no reason or excuse for it...and it is incredibly sad at every standard.
It is the complete opposite of integrity and respect and it is frightening to think that children whose parents are capable of this behavior, may grow up thinking it is 'acceptable.' I can only pray that does not happen to Marc's wonderful son, Dylan.
My happy wonderful life as I have known it for the last 3 years came crashing down on me and ended on Sunday, February 5, 2012. Saturday everything was as it had been for the last 3 years - just about perfect…we had so much fun taking Dylan to the indoor skydiving place, had a great dinner, and a nice night at Marc’s…until Sunday morning when I went to check my email from Marc’s computer and accidently found myself in his yahoo inbox instead of mine. I read an email from a woman named Kellie…I have a very good friend with the same name that emails me all the time and so I still had no idea I was not in my inbox, until I read the email.
It is the complete opposite of integrity and respect and it is frightening to think that children whose parents are capable of this behavior, may grow up thinking it is 'acceptable.' I can only pray that does not happen to Marc's wonderful son, Dylan.
My happy wonderful life as I have known it for the last 3 years came crashing down on me and ended on Sunday, February 5, 2012. Saturday everything was as it had been for the last 3 years - just about perfect…we had so much fun taking Dylan to the indoor skydiving place, had a great dinner, and a nice night at Marc’s…until Sunday morning when I went to check my email from Marc’s computer and accidently found myself in his yahoo inbox instead of mine. I read an email from a woman named Kellie…I have a very good friend with the same name that emails me all the time and so I still had no idea I was not in my inbox, until I read the email.
He did it again…Marc has been living two lives and deceiving me and cheating on me…how could this be possible…why??? How could he do this, again???? Please wake me up from this bad dream, this bad movie, actually more of a nightmare. It just can’t be…but it is. To say that my heart is broken is an understatement…there are no words to describe how I feel other than to say I feel dead, nothing, gone…and this time around, I lose his son too…a child I have grown to love like my very own.
I can’t stop crying, I can’t sleep and I can’t eat…but I know I will eventually and I know I will survive…I lived through this exact scenario 12 years ago and I will survive this time too.
I trusted him again...I gave to him my heart, my soul, my mind, and my body...but this time I can walk away knowing that *I* did NOTHING to destroy the second chance we had. And with that, I find comfort...just a little.
I trusted him again...I gave to him my heart, my soul, my mind, and my body...but this time I can walk away knowing that *I* did NOTHING to destroy the second chance we had. And with that, I find comfort...just a little.
Marc, if you’re ever man enough to read this post, know that just because I was able to find it in myself to admit my mistakes and accept my responsibility for the role I played in our marriage dying, and I found it in my heart to forgive you for cheating on me 12 years ago, what you’ve done now, you did all by yourself and I will never forgive you and I feel very sorry for you. I hate you for what you have done.
once being decieved by you, shame on me...deceive me twice, shame on you...
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Oh Laurie, I am so sorry. I can't imagine how much it hurts, to lose two people this time instead of one, but I do know you are a strong, smart, independent woman who will come out the other side. Nothing will be the same, but you will survive, and you have your wonderful dogs and lots of friends who really care about you. He is truly the loser in this situation.
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ReplyDeleteI am so, so sorry Laurie. Tons and tons of hugs to you...
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry Laurie. You deserve so much better and it just isn't fair. John and I are keeping you in our thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteFrom one of the poet's I've been reading “There is beauty in truth, even if it's painful. Those who lie, twist life so that it looks tasty to the lazy, brilliant to the ignorant, and powerful to the weak. But lies only strengthen our defects. They don't teach anything, help anything, fix anything or cure anything. Nor do they develop one's character, one's mind, one's heart or one's soul.”
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I'm so sorry for you. I hope in the end you can make the best of all this.
I am so sorry you are having to go thru this again. I cannot begin to imagine your pain. I wish I lived closer to you than I do. I know you feel like your life ended, however, your life is now going to go thru another change, a new beginning and chapter. At first you may not see the good, but they say everything happens for a reason. The one I feel sorry for is Dylan, he is the person I believe who will lose out. He lost you, a wonderful, caring, giving soul. Marc does not deserve you or much of anything in his miserable little life. Don't feel sorry for him. Please hang in there! Don't let anyone or anything get the best of you - because you are one of the best! Please know that I am only a phone call away just like you were for me last year. I don't know what I would have done without you. I love you!
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Your Sister
My wife and i found a blog by you when we googled training, etc..we knew right away who you were. We've known Marc for over 20 years...at roadrace tracks....so we've followed your success with your training. great job by the way...But my wife and i talked it over and since we both despise Marc for many reasons, decided to write you. He has been known for his cheating ways for over 20 years. Each weekend was a new girl with him at the tracks. Workers even. We though he was single till we learned from all the people who knew him what he was really about. Hes cocky, arrogant, and many men want to punch his lights out at tracks. for what he does with their wives, girlfriends...many years, then what he did and married Jean, did it to Jean ( a man killed himself over Marcs affair with his wife and I heard he he married that woman), then all the other marraiges he broke up. He lost some very good friends due his lying, cheating ways I know. To think he had another chance with what you described as high school, ex wife and has screwed up again..although hes been wanted to be punched out at several races the past couple years...our heart goes out to you and all the other women he did this too. He is seriosuly sick and deserves to be alone. You seem to be a good person and I do know Dylan, having met him at a couple races. he is beautiful young man, my wife adores him...I also autocross and saw him with his mother at a race, doing very well, and impressive..he was lucky to have you as a part of his life for a bit. I know his mom and she is a very good person, knowing she was so lied to by him as well when they got together...My wife encouraged me to write and tell you as she put herself in your place and felt you needed to know the truth of this scumbag and what went on for 20 plus years. We all feel for you, I am sure word will be getting out and he will lose the respect of many more..hold your head high and be glad to be rid of what he had been doing back in years and years before...you DO deserve better..keep up the good work with your dogs....hey, they are better than any Marc Dana could be!
ReplyDeletebravo-you are right...she should know all this....the truth...knew this too, knew her too...someone needed to be honest with her...feel good for letting her know the truth...this dude is a piece of shi$ and he needs deballed..what kind of person does this to good people??? Shes a good person...probqably they all were but all lied to and filled up with bullshit....knew what she did and many of us like/have dogs...but had hard time looking her in face...she though this ass was so innocent...never ever before 10 years ago...yeah right...lets say even 10 years before that...go on girl...live...be happy..the best revenge ever...sorry for all the other wives involved with lies we all heard and knew....thank god....this dude needs to pay for the lies/heartache he put all the women through..we all knew he told them he was single, roomates, the wife caused him to cheat....deball him!!!
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